Break's Over.

Raya (for me that is) is almost over and that means my break is almost over too. Honestly I can't wait to go back to rehabilitation. The real world has been so scary, annoying and downright a terrifying experience. I didn't know how bad it was until I re-joined it after being cut off from it for almost 3 weeks. Everything just hits you and no one is that apologetic, or sympathetic.

Kinda relieved I'll be going back. Cause I need it. But also kind of scared. Mainly because it took me a while to get used to the public after they released me for a temporary break (says raya is time for "family" after all. what nonsense) and now I'm okay with it. Tired. Drained. But okay with it.

This time I'll be staying in for far longer and I wonder if I'll be okay when they let me out again.

I lost myself. I lost you. I can't afford to lose everyone else too.

But  I did. And it hurts. It hurts so bad.