Between All The Thorns.

So.

I wasn't able to keep the resolution that I made. Another disappointment to add to my list of other life failures,

And apparently everyone is just eager to tell me that I have failed in keeping my resolution. which sucks.

Life is supposed to have ups and downs but somehow it seems that I myself am dead set on making my life as miserable as it can be.

I try not to slack off too much. Nor waste my time too much on insignificant things. And as much as I hate to admit it,  kpop is included in said category too. Well it is when you spend more than half the day on nothing but beautiful faces and you're 21 and have no single clue of what you're going to do with your imminent future.

Adding to that, since the beginning of the year, I've been feeling like i'm in a state of in between. neither this or that. neither here or there. and it pains me too much sometimes to think that i'm floating on uncertain waves.

where do i go.

where CAN i go?

And with all that's happened between my blood sisters during my semester break and the things that keeps happening to me after that.

I mean it doesn't affect me anymore. Atleast that's what I told myself. But it seems as though my mind and heart have a different answer. To not be able to control your own mind is the last thing I want right now.

maybe i should get a pen pal.