Late Night Thoughts.

The night air tickles your neck and you baby hairs dance in a whimsy. And then you realize it's two in the morning and a switch in your mind is turned on, waking up the after midnight thoughts that are commonly associated with self-loathing and a more than dire need to reevaluate your self-worth. If you have any at all. 

My biological clock has been turned upside down due to recent events which is no event at all therefore allowing my brain and my inner self to believe that I can sleep and wake up whenever I want hence making after midnight as awake hours. 

I'm in a self dilemma where I don't know whether I like being awake in the middle of the night or if it's much preferable to be awake at these troubling hours. 

Old.

The only thing new about a new year is THE YEAR. YOU get older. The earth gets older and that goes for everything in it as well. Nothing is new and we forget that everything is dying and desperately need our attention because we're too focused on the fact that it's a new year hence it comes with the obligation that we are to create new memories, new adventures, events, memes, challenges, trends. buildings, campaigns and while we compete with one another on who can be the NEWEST original. 

The world dies a little more inside. And that kinda terrifies me. It feels like a cancer patient who wouldn't or couldn't tell her family about her condition because she's afraid the effect it might have on them but they themselves should have noticed the symptoms, the signs and pay more attention to her yet they are too absorbed in their own achievements, problems, goals to notice what the lack of attention is doing to her well being and when it's all too late-

well. it's all too late. 

SO happy new year folks.