First Weekend Back Home.

Things Are Looking Up I Guess.

So it's been a month over since I started my degree here at USM and Alhamdullilah things are finally getting better. I feel the love for this place coming little by little each day and I am hoping to the heavens that the love will continue on growing and not just stop halfway. Please. 

Degree life is hectic. That's all I can say. There's just so many things that needs to be done in a certain amount of time and though it seems like you have all the time in the world with you, before you know it, you're walking on a thread trying to catch up with everyone else. Definitely a 360 degrees change from foundation. Not that I didn't expect it. Just probably. 

Well.

I wasn't prepared for it. 

But the seniors said that your busiest year would be your first and second year so just bear with it for a while. And I wish nothing but for it to be the truth. I honestly don't know how long I'm going to keep up with everything for the next two years. Endurance has never been one of my stronger abilities.

And I don't think I'd survive another day here if MTAK isn't around. They literally make everything at least bearable.

I am constantly stressed out or panic for the time being. There's just so many things that needs my attention that I ended up losing focus in everything I do. And when I do decide to focus, I don't know where to even start. Oh and don't even start on assignments and tutorials, i mean they literally take up ninety percent of my time and St.John meetings every saturday mornings is just making everything worse. No one wants their Saturdays disturbed and certainly no one wants to wake up early on a saturday. But I have to wake up at 6 every saturday morning just to be in time for St. John. I mean, no sleep in after Subuh prayer on Saturdays is just something I'm not used to yet. I guess I will in a few weeks time. I have to I guess.

*Deep Breaths*

But but but but but. Despite everything, I still love my Uni life right now. I mean now it really feels like I'm in another phase of my life. Another era. There are still some things that I need some adjusting to but hey, when have I ever not been able to adjust myself to anything right?

Acceptance Is Needed.

Hello my beautiful imagination readers! Been a while since I last updated and I can proudly say it is due to pure laziness that has been building and spreading itself inside of me for the last few weeks. Well, months I should say.

And everytime I find myself in the mood to update, my laptop wouldn't be there for me to realize my dreams. Sobs Sobs. Ok drama min. Drama.

So i guess the first question is, how have you guys been? Everyone I know is starting a new journey. A new path. A new adventure. Including yours truly. :)

So MONTHS ago. back when I was still fat and hopeless and useless at home, UPU results came out and Alhamdullilah, I was offered a spot in UM and USM as well. Both offered similar courses as well. TESL in UM or TESOL in USM. I had the most difficult time in picking between them actually whereas everyone around me could see the obvious choice I should make. Which is UM. I wondered myself. Why. Why was I having second thoughts on picking either of them. Why couldn't I make my decision in a heartbeat and be done with it?

Because it wasn't that simple as people thought it'd be. I'm going to be spending the most important four years of my life in one of these universities, of course I can't just simply pick. I can't rule USM out just because UM was the other choice, that would be judgemental. I needed to really pull out all the pros and cons.

Most people suggested UM because it was closer to home and it's in KL. And they say that like it's a good thing whereas I like being far from home. Or studying somewhere far. I like far. It gives me this sense of independence that I feel I can control with my own hands. So if it's distance I wanted, then the obvious choice would USM. But UM is like THE uni to go to. And I, Shamin Insyirah Roslan was offered a spot. Is it right for me to decline it?

Shortening the story, I chose USM for reasons that now seemed vague and unimportant to me. But oh well, I've made my decision and now I'm here.

I didn't really like USM at first.

No.


Not even one tiny bit. Just everything about it wreaks of "academic". That was when I started to wonder if I've made the wrong decision by choosing USM. Orientation was hell of course. It was even worse than the MDS i experienced in Jengka.


But it's been one month since I got here, and slowly I'm adjusting to everything. Slowly, I'm starting to love my life here. It's all about being positive people.

There's tons of things I'd still love to share but my writing have gone a little rusty and well, xde mood nak blog.

Ni pun sbb x nk kasi blog berhabuk je.

Till next time peeps.