Necessary.

I didn't think it would hurt this much. 

I didn't think I would regret it this much. 

But I do. 

And if I could, I just want to rewind everything. If I could I want to be okay. If I could I want to be healthy and normal. 

But I'm not. 

And I had to let go of so many loved ones because they don't deserve a taste of my life.

They don't deserve my suffering. They need to be happy. 

They need to live their life. 

Not be stuck with my cursed one. 

Who am I to deny their rights of salvation by being trapped with me.

I can't be that selfish. No. 

I can't. 

I won't. 

I wouldn't.