I wanted to.

We were best friends back in Asasi. This one dude and I. I even dare say I was closer to him than my Meteoras. We both got into USM. And I really thought we'd go a long way. 

But things happened.

Maybe I was oversensitive. 

Maybe he didn't treasure the friendship as I wish he would. 

either way, one day we weren't friends anymore. I kinda wished we were able to fix. I kinda wish that we'd get through this. 

But my heart was hurting too much and it was the last straw. 

And I was happy. Letting go of him. Though it hurt. Though it broke me down to pieces at one point. But I was finally happy and free. 

But I saw him last night. 

And everything I tried to make myself believe I was happier without him came crashing down without warning. 

I didn't greet him. Nor did I acknowledge his presence. Though he did. 

But I wanted to. I wanted to look him in the eyes. I wanted to talk to him. I wanted to say, "I miss you and I want us to be like old times again"

But that would mean all my efforts would be a waste. That would mean I have forgotten all the broken promises and careless words. That would mean I wasn't hurting anymore.

But I was. And I still am.

But I miss us.