This and That.

Because Penang doesn't have Carls. Jr so naturally this was the first thing I looked for when I touch KL soil. I miss my favourite fast food joint.

I was suppose to blog about this particular post about two days ago cos this is about my first day of sem break, but priorities changed you know how it is.

First day of sem break... was not boring to say the least. I got my carls jr.

And omg the best part was that I finally got my own tub of green tea ice cream which I just couldn't get enough of  for the past few months. Weird thing though, I don't know if I've suddenly got a green tea fetish or something but when I got home I realize everything that I bough was green tea flavored.

I only bought three things at the supermarket.

A shampoo : Follow Me Green Tea

Tea : Green Tea

Ice Cream : Green Tea.


Ntah la maybe it's like that time I WAS SO head over heels for dark chocolate after I tasted it for the first time I ended up eating at least once in three days for a few months jugak.


And I don't know if I've mentioned in my previous posts about me wanting to do nothing for the whole one month of this sem break, but yeah, it ain't gon happen unfortunately. Just got a job at UiTM P. Alam jaga kiosk. But hey look at the bright side, at least I'm getting money kan?

Serious talk though I kinda need to restrain myself from using my salary at all cos I have a mission man. Mission of going to Korea next year. And I want it to happen so bad.

Ughh hari ni ramblings macam kepala x tentu because yes my head is currently a mess right now.

Later. 

Tired

First day of Sem Break?

One word.

Green Tea.

And Carls. Jr.

Ahaks.

Tired beyond.

Will update tomorrow.

Cos It's almost midnight and I need to post this up before the next day comes I ain't making the same mistake *take one long deep breath*

One Month Of Nothingness Please.

So finals just ended. 

And ok technically it's already the tenth but you can't  blame me. I had a paper from nine to eleven and then I had to go settle some St. John business and by three my mom has already arrived on campus and I HAVEN'T PACKED A THING. So I didn't even have time to switch on my laptop and blog. And I planned to get to it once I reached home, it's pass midnight now so yeah. Unavoidable circumstances. But I did have a resolution of blogging for each day and I am not going to break it now. 

So again,

Finals just ended. And again I feel nothing. Nada. Zeros. Maybe because I haven't celebrated yet so I'm not really feeling the mood of sem break yet which is only a month by the way so nothing to get overly excited about anyway. 

I honestly thought that my mom would arrive at night and we'd go back on the tenth in the morning. So it came as a surprise to me when she told me that she was already in Penang that morning. And well, I was kinda bummed cos I was planning to go out right after the final paper. First party people ajak keluar makan seoul garden and Syud whatsapped me about going out as well. And it's been a while since I lepak with Syud anyways so macam ok cool bole lepak before going back. So I felt really sorry for her when I had to tell her that I can't go cos I'm going back as soon as I'm done packing. Haih.

Honestly,

I want to do nothing for this one month break. Mainly because I've been working my ass off during my first semester at USM and I haven't had a proper break since. But my mom has already given me contacts of people that I can call to ask for a job. Of course, I mean I thought it was ridiculous cos

I mean

A MONTH JE KOT. 

Then I figured if  I sit at home for a month I'd just gain back all the weight I've shed. And the extra income definitely wouldn't hurt. I have plans to go to Korea next year so I really need the money. Plus I need a new phone. The artifact I'm using right now is just not working anymore. I mean thanks for the past four years but I'm ready to move on. Ahah. 

Ok enough rambling for a night. 

We'll see how the first day of my sem break goes tomorrow. 

I Don't Know Anymore

I trust no one but you to heal my undeserved demon heart.

Even if if we have never met. 

A Long List Of Apologies

The word sorry isn't easy to say. And yet everytime I say it to someone, I feel liberated. I feel like a burden is taken off my shoulder and now I can at least cross another name off my list.

But at times. I sometimes wonder why I keep repeating my mistakes when I myself don't like to apologize over and over again. Apologies repeated are worthless ones. Because it means you're never really sorry. You're doing it out of mere obligations.

So is that it then.

Am I doing it just because it's my obligation to do so. Just because I don't wanna rot in hell.

Is my soul so condemn that there is no turning back for me.

Either way,

I'm sorry. 

Habits to change.

Like for one, I know I like to complain about almost everything. So maybe not STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT EVERYTHING cos hell everybody knows I'm incapable of that but MAYBE  J U S T MAYBE stop a few bits here and there. I know people can get tired of hearing me whine about petty stuff at all times, they're probably just too kind to tell me to shut up and get a life.

Two. I can be a bitch sometimes. Saying things that I mean when I know I should have just kept it at the back of my head. But hey whoever said that truth was beautiful? And I'd like to believe people appreciate the ugly truth once in a while. But alas, times have changed and humans would rather feed on unrealistic illusions then open their eyes to sullied images. So maybe I'll cut down on the sarcasm and honesty just a little bit so that humans around me don't feel like strangling me half the time.

Three. Due to my inner hatred towards mankind, it's only natural that I have dissatisfaction over everyone. But it doesn't really give me the right to tell my dissastisfactions to anybody else does it? I mean it's like kira I macam mengaibkan orang jugak  la kan no I'm not particularly bad mouthing. Just expressing my dissatisfaction towards certain people IT AINT THE SAME NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY.I don't like it when people talk about my bad sides either so I'll try to lessen doing it too then. You know what they say, what goes around comes around.

Finally, have a good night everyone. May tomorrow bring better rains. 

Worst Stomach Ache

Seriously today, I experienced the worst stomach ache. I couldn't walk without feeling like my feet would give away any moment. I can't stand. sit. lie down. because every action increases the pain no matter what I do. And I have a won't-be-difficult-if-I-study-the-materials-given paper tomorrow. But I can't concentrate when I'm distracted by the excruciating pain at the pit of my stomach. 

And it's rare because I've experience this kind of pain before. Only it never last more than four to five seconds and it usually goes away after I let out some gas. So it's very odd that it has prolonged to an unbearable state and I don't know what to do because it's not the usual pain I always feel when I'm down with stomach pains. 

It started when I woke up from my afternoon nap and went on for about a couple of hours. I went to lunch despite the pain because I know eventually it'll go away. All my stomach pains always did. And it was ok for a while. But then I slept again around 6 in the evening and when I woke at 9 the pain came again, worse than ever and I'm starting to wonder something could've gone wrong inside me. Like maybe I salah tido ke and now all my intestines are tangled. =.=

Anyway, the pain has subsided a bit as I'm blogging this but I'm just terrified to go back to sleep, in fear that the pain will come again tomorrow morning and I won't be strong enough to walk myself to the exam hall so I have a stupid plan of maybe sleeping after the paper ends cos then kalau nk sakit pun sakit la I can just stay in my bed. But ughh, kalau x dpt any sleep, what if I end up sleeping while taking the paper. 

I don't know what's wrong and I don't have the time to find out if this could be anything serious. I just hope it goes away eventually (PREFERABLY BY TOMORROW) and I could go back to leading a normal fat life; 

The Paper That Kills.

So I have a really difficult paper tomorrow. 

Her name is Linguistics. 

And I am nowhere near ready for the battle that's about to come. 

Honestly I think if I have put a little effort in studying and revise whatever that was taught in class at least once in a month I probably would have no problem in acing this final paper which takes up 60% OF THE GRADE BTW ughh. 

But me and studying, we're not friends. And no matter how hard I try to make it work, she just doesn't seem to want the same thing that I do.

Please. 

Pray for a miracle. =.=

Proving You Wrong

It's day two of 2015. 

Page 2 out 365. 

And I'm still here. Aher. 😊

So when I told a few of my close friends that one of my new resolutions for this year is to blog every day without failure, they all gave me a reaction that I had expected all long. And really who can blame them, considering how "active" I was last year. 

"Right, like you'd actually do it"

"Min, *gives a stop-with-the-jokes look"

"Eleeh boleh ke"

"Hahahaha yeah right I wanna see you try"

"I give you two weeks top"

Are just some of the reactions I got when they heard about my blog-for-365-days. And that's why I really want to prove them all wrong. And more importantly I want to prove MYSELF wrong. I really want to be able to complete at least one resolution. And the more susceptibility is thrown at me, the more driven I become to complete this seemingly impossible task

On another note, as you can see my blog underwent a makeover, It's not much but I like it that way, 

p.s pardon my bad blogging skills. It's gotten a little bit rusty and it'll be a while before I get back my usual writing hoo-haa

Page one.

So it's officially 2015. 

Hah. 

Honestly I've never felt more terrified about entering a new year. Considering how brutal 2014 had been to me. And I'm just not ready to engage in another year-long battle. 

I almost lost in the previous one. 

My instinct often plays a part on how I look on certain things. And the fact that I have NO PARTICULAR INSTINCTS for 2015

It scares me. 

Because I don't know what should I be aware of.  I don't know how I'll brace myself for unexpected situations. And honestly I'm no stranger to unfortunate fortunes. 

And what kind of a new year post would this be without a new year resolution kan. 

I don't have much this year. Nor did I have much for any of the previous years. 

Well actually this is the first year that I am actually having new year resolutions. And one of them was to blog everyday for the next 365 days. You know how they have those pictures "page 1 out of 365" 

Yeah well I kinda wanna make it a reality and blog everyday without fail.

Seeing as how I basically just left this blog abandoned last year. Like I said, I was going through a year long battle and blogging just couldn't be a top priority. 

But I'll promise I'll try to stick my resolution this time and stick to it till the end. 

aaaaannddd well, 

Welcome to 2015 everyone.